Alone in a Crowd

Have you ever felt lonely even when you have great friends? I know that I will sit with them at lunch and we will have fun and laugh, but I still feel alone. I don’t know what to do cause everything is great, my friends are awesome they are always there for me. I talk to them everyday, we make plans on the weekends. By no means would I call myself “popular” but I’m not alone. Some days it just feels like I don’t have anyone to talk to, it doesn’t even have to be a whole day it could just be a hour or two but I still feel lonely. I don’t know what it is and I’m hoping other people feel the same way. My question is why am I lonely when I’m surrounded by loving family and friends. Have you ever felt this way? I would love to talk to you guys in the comments below.

The Bumbling Beauty xxx

Stressful Situations

I have recently had exams and for a lot of people including me they are very stressful. I never really had a way to get rid of my stress or a way to decrease my stress, I usually just deal with it. However now that my grades can affect what college I get into my stress level has been through the roof. People have told me to take deep breaths, get exercise, or to do something you enjoy to relax but nothing has worked for me. I always find doing those things most of the time give me more stress and anxiety. I have never had a panic attack *knock on wood* and I am grateful for that. When I do something thats supposed to distract me from something stressful my brain starts screaming and hollering for me to do something productive. I have always wondered how it works for other people. I think my brain is just always thinking and changing thoughts so fast that everything is always on my mind. How do you guys deal with stress? Leave your coping strategies in the comments below!

The Bumbling Beauty xxx

Why Am I Here?

I have decided to start a blog... Obviously... I feel like there is no good way to start your first youtube video or write out the beginning of your first blog post. I just seems weird, some people say, “Hi my name is so and so and welcome to my blog.” or, “This is my first blog post hope you enjoy!” Now that I have written the intro let me introduce myself, well, this is my blog… my anonymous blog that is. Obviously it would be easier to say my name but then I would not be able to write about things I would like to, for privacy reasons. So I have decided to remain anonymous, that means that all names mentioned in this blog have been changed. I have tried to keep a journal, I have had a failed attempt at youtube when I was younger, and I have tried to talk to other people, but sometimes there is no one to talk to. It felt weird writing to myself in a journal, all of these words on a page not for anyone but me and what was I going to do with them they were already mine, in my head. I was to young and didn’t have a camera accept for the one on my computer so the youtube thing didn't really work out. I sometimes find it hard to talk to  people even if there is someone there that I trust. I am a very emotional person so I can let my emotions override my rationality. This is a place where I can express my feelings freely and hopefully if you guys have the same problem I can help you out to, and vice versa obviously. On this blog I will talk about life, travel, and my favorite makeup!!

The Bumbling Beauty xxx